November 22, 2017

 Day 23..6 am. This was supposed to be 5-7 days. I wonder God's plan and wait for an answer.  There is no light at the end of the tunnel yet.  

His vitals are considered good, even though occasionally his BP drops or his heart races at 120 and his blood sugar over 200.   But, they just give him insulin or whatever Med he needs to control the problem. 

He is improving physically. He still mixes words up or just goes off to his own world.  We almost lost him on November 2 and  I don't know if there is damage from that. I am past believing it's all drug induced. They use terms like hospital psychosis or Sundowners.  I just want my husband back in a healthy state top to bottom.

 November 17, 2017

Our Journey

Day 17  I am sitting here listening to Wade snore. Something 16 days ago , I did not know if I would ever hear that rattling sound again. Sweet music to my ears now. 

He is improving physically. Where he had 4 chest tubes, he now has one.  The most troubling tube and the most important the NG, which he has now pulled out twice creating panic across the board.  

He still wanders off into the fog of his mind and that is worrisome.  Sometime his BP tanks or his oxygen level.  Either gets action or careful watch adjusting meds accordingly. 

He has come a long way and still a long way to go. This is our journey together.

Friends and Confidants

 The older you get,the tighter the circle gets each year

If you can, hang on to the old and welcome the new

      Thank you for being a friend, confidant ,a listening ear

Those we can share our innermost feelings are few.

When I lost Wade, I lost my best friend, my lover, my confidant, and my conspirator.  He is hard to replace, no impossible to replace.  I was left with my thoughts,worries and no one to share them with. That is not only scary, but lonely.  

 There are a couple of friends that I trust, when things go wrong.  Friends that I can talk to, share my feelings.  They encourage me and console me.They are not my companion and I still have only my thoughts. I am still lonely.  

 

Almost Thanksgiving

Here we are in the season of giving thanks.The calendar page has rolled over and we begin planning for that big dinner we have on the fourth Thursday every November. The President has proclaimed that day will be a day of National Thanksgiving and so we are.What are we thankful for, turkey, dressing and all the fixings. Yes, but what else?

We live in a world of fear.  This year we have COVID.  Thousands and thousands  of families touched by this terror. A terror that took lives, closed businesses, took jobs, many confined to their homes. and children locked out of school. 

Our children are not safe from predators. They are snatched almost in front of our eyes and used in the most perverse ways imaginable. Taken by people so evil it is hard to believe they have souls.

We and our children are not safe from mad men who in their confused minds perceive us as enemies and plot to shoot us downs and sadly succeed all of too frequently.

What do we have to be thankful for?
This year even after delays because of COVID and political wrangling, we were able to cast our ballot in a free from tyranny society.

Businesses are slowly reopening, sadly some closed forever, jobs are opening and our schools 

Jesus our Lord and Savior, who hears prayers and answers. 
Freedom to worship.

Freedom to love
Freedom to tell the story of God’s Love for us
Family and friends
We have food on our table, clothes on our back, a roof over our head

And a home that is warm in winter.
We have a lot to be thankful for, more than we know
Say a prayer for those who had their joy taken by evil
Say a prayer for those whose joy has been tempered by illness
Or lost someone from one of the many diseases we need a cure for.
Say a prayer for all those missing someone
Say a prayer for all those who serve to protect us.
God Bless America!
God please save America!

Believe it or Not

Joe Biden is the projected President Elect of The United States of America.  The biggest problem he faces  is the word United.  The country is anything but United. It has not been for years and it did not start with Donald Trump. The two major political parties are the major contributors  

Truthfully, I expected four more years of the turmoil that we as a country have experienced since the kick off of the 2016 Election   I cannot say that I am not glad to see Donald Trump gone from office  I cannot say that I have an over abundance of confidence in Joe Biden.  

We need better choices  We need term limits on Congress.  We need a better voting system with equal guidelines across the country.  We need a lot of reform  We will see   

I wish Joe Biden well, he was the only choice I could live with.  I pray that he and those surrounding him will serve and have the best interest of this country at heart.

Choose well President Elect Biden.